I cannot even begin to explain the rush of emotions I felt during and after the whole process of the "how-to" video. During the filming, I was just downright frustrated. Nothing was going right. Because the actors would lose their place, so would I. I know that Lemos was telling me to pay attention to the screens instead of the script, but I just couldn't! Plus, I gave my cameramen a set list of shots. I didn't wanna just call on them and they're not on the shot that I intended them to be.
Our whole set burned and crashed to the ground. It was like a fire consumed it and nothing was left but ashes. I. Was. So. Pissed. We spent a lot of time making and putting up the set only to have everything fail on us. It just makes me think that we could have put that time and effort into something else. Ahh, these what-ifs are killing me.
Alexa didn't have a headset either. It sucked because I wasn't able to communicate with her. Maybe it wasn't that big of a deal, but it certainly couldn't have hurt to be able to talk to her the way I was supposed to.
Quite frankly, everything just went out horribly. I joked about it before, saying that we would have an amazing opening sequence and a crappy video... and that's exactly what happened. Plus, we didn't get to put in the two graphics we were meant to have. We didn't have an ending to the show. Added to insult, we went over the time limit.
They say that the blame isn't on me. But I feel like it is! Come on, I'm director. I feel like such a failure. I should have made sure that my talent knew their lines. I was all over the place while directing my crew. Overall, I just felt like I did a crap job. It just sucks to go from my successful Sticky Webb video to this horrible mess.
